Excitement stripped away tell me
Do you think about my side?
Glowing feelings and eyes taken away
Do you want to understand me?
Caution lights becoming brighter
I’m sure you know why I am being cautious in exposing my gifts to you
Sometimes I’m not sure if you know how fragile I am
Yeah I pretend to be so strong ready for any environment
Alone I crumble under weighing significance
Questioned by all when I’m silent reflecting
Microphone on am I supposed to perform until a dark curtain comes?
Want to touch too much
Feel too much too much
Sensitive too much
Quiet too much
Myself just too much
How should I perform my lines
How should I be your idea of me
Shouldn’t I be myself
Accepted the way I am
Heart on my sleeves
Damaged dying man.
Curled against the wall in bed hoping I’m doing right by you
Scared I’m failing and scared I’m going to be hurt
Terrified I’ll hurt you some way and break your smile
Horrified you’ll be heartless to ruin mine
And I can’t express why I hold you so damn tight even when you sleep
No I can’t explain why I turn over afraid I’m not wanted the same
Even when you’ve proven you love me and say it sweetly sincerely
Oh we both know I’m a broken man years damaged in my blood
Oh we both know I am broken glass in a package trying to be whole.
Sadly I don’t think I’ll ever believe I’m good enough for good
Sadly I can’t expect anyone to understand me honey I don’t understand myself
Sadly I’m a fucking mess mind spinning teases I’ve been less than I’ve wanted for a long time
Frozen in a damaged mind.