Prefer to settle
What we fight
Over than pretend it’s gone
Stick through the shallow water
Easier said I know,
Then it’s trying not to go too deep in yourself
Avoiding holding on to something or someone else to float
Many fine lines to walk carefully considering possibilities
All I know
This dark room isn’t so sinister with curled against me.
Hard to hide I’m fading for an impossible to know end
Honey everyone is doing the same
Quality seems to be controllable
Instead of dreading death let us live before it appears
Easy to drop worthlessness those fillers we used to eat mentally
Drift away from the hate lines
Renew air running through lungs fast are we going to find a way to be alone safe
Maybe I don’t move my curtains afraid of incoming tomatoes
Thrown by neighbors heartless can peace be held?
All you needed to do was hide under your covers to be safe
Until the time you hid and still made rivers of tears
We relate burst through our graves already had us a set date but we were still trying
Whispering maybe staying over would cure pretending you find rest elsewhere
You wouldn’t have to pretend I’m smiling while you watch me find sleep
I wouldn’t have to imagine it while playing songs we can kiss to
It’s so dark in my room but only until you come back
Always opening blinds saying light is for people like us too
Trying to make through back rubs to take a break.
Midnight air waiting
Open windows to prepare
Finished pretending I don’t want to stare
I get romantic minded thinking of where we began.