Mocking Sight

My personal teacher

Lesson I’m too far away to be heard

Far in a mocking distance

On my own in wilderness

Best way to survive is forgetting everyone

Making shelter under an unforgiving sun

Feeling drained as my batteries run down.

Songs created in my head for hours to keep some sanity

In class learning how insignificance can kiss

Cause erections until I’m scared stiff

Illustrate how loud oblivion can echo

Fuck me gently until this is finished and we let go

Detention in isolation the path for enlightenment

Lesson plan says being abandoned is a compliment

Well then I’m flattered way too much

Withering out of sight.


Coughing In A Cold Coffin


Silent treatment blues

Under rocks

Praying for glimpses of a better sky


I’m putting this failing fight in me to sleep

Reached for light only rewarded with deep dark adjustments

In other words air is dwindling similar to our contact.


Remaining still

Chances accelerating down huge hills

Unable to escape via pills

I’m dying while my angel watches

She doesn’t care as I surrender

Joyful noises below don’t exist

Imagine knowing you’ll never be missed.

Emptiness Of Wanting Attention

What conditions are necessary to be in dreams again

Previously unstoppable, highly desired

How does a lover’s face turn into boring news

How do we turn into ignored valuables unworthy of touch

Told asking for attention is too damn much

Kept for experiments in abandonment

Wiping tears away before resentment comes

A dish once treasured now no one wants.


Sunset scrolling down faces awaiting absent kisses

Words are so pretty but we know it isn’t real

Excuses made but in the beginning no reasons were needed

Oh have you ever felt left on a shelf covered in dirt

Sold to find no sale

Like dark clouds without payment

Cold hands in the dark.


Don’t beg

Don’t ask

You already know the answer

Attention pours into emptiness

Wanting attention causes stress

Best thing to do is get quality rest

Turn over remembering to keep some of yourself safe.