Please don’t follow my trial into darkened discovery
Mission to regain my humanity stolen by other men
Actually it never left, just hidden under scars and stars
Stripes promising equality yet always barred
Scary tales of outside killers while inside ones stay festering
Do we have enough pills to march on, always under attack
Capital capitalism, costly prescriptions in hidden cracks
Widened for us
Before we die early our minds want to leave marks, last breath hoping they stick, stuck.
Some don’t see blood pouring into our streets
Young lives forfeiting this horrid game, suits cheat
And we can’t figure out why pills have become candy
Living daily wondering if this is the day they’ll find a gun is really deadly
Opting out, unknown
Unloved tired and worn
I’m just an older victim of national hate programs
Perception fucked up all I see are failed plans.
All I need is a strong dose of confidence in this blood.
Meditation refreshing my waning faith producing endurance.
I’ve been close to edges pondering leaping.
Seen images of being tormented, left alone weeping.
I’m responsible for my hands in peace or war.
Overcoming lies and hatred in my cell.
Do I see what I want to see?
Am I in a locked cell or secretly free?
Is the savior I’ve been waiting for inside a mirror hidden attendee?
Perscribe myself, perception.
Cut away, suicidal suggestions.
To stand as tall as I am.
Refusing being damned.
Can we have fun tonight
Break out of our cycles
Honey you’re so tight, tense as hell
Feeling like we’re on repeat
I am the one here to break up stale walls you love
Follow me tonight, I’ll keep you in the town past our bedtimes.
Or perhaps I should settle down in dead leaves like you do
Give in to routines claiming nothing is new
Say we should do this and go there but end up in the same place, living room chair
Just think if we can’t leave town let’s make it our own
A sack, music, writing poems
Time when I can be myself without censorship
Laughing so damn loud enjoying life.
I am the one here, I am the one here to break up these stale brick walls you love
Follow me tonight, let’s drive windows tight smoke surrounding us
I’ll keep you in the town past our bedtimes.